A glimpse of a god’s face

Traces of your smile that besieged the entire place
Raging from all directions, blatant looks dawned upon you
Intrigued, why a delightful visage graced the floor
Summer is yet to come but radiance beamed through
Tender and sweet, you always seem to be
Angel in disguise, others may see
Nothing but a timeless beauty, you are to me

Gorgeously you danced the night away
As light as a feather your body did sway
Yearning for some lovin’, your soul has whispered
Not in a million years I’ll have that delivered
Only when everyone else has stopped, I’ll seize the moment
Rest in my arms, I’ll hold you and say goodbye to the glimpse of a god’s face

each beginning could only speak of anyone but you…
...

Just can't help it

It was during our earlier days in my first account in PS when Chona Mae's blog was born and it was a sure hit! She's still a character up to now. It was just earlier today when I got the chance to go over her blog again and read the entries from the beginning. I so want to laugh real hard but I haven't gotten the chance to read her blog from the house -- see right now I'm at the gym (while waiting for a friend of mine to finish his work out) and it's obviously quite public.

And because I so love Chona Mae's character so much, she just got a spot on my favorite links. I wouldn't be surprised if one day her character (along with the others on her blog) will be part of a sitcom or something hehehe.

La Salle Cheers

I'm sure you guys missed these!!!

La Salle Spelling

La Salle Spelling, Set! 1-2-3!

La Salle Spelling!

La Salle Spelling

Ready!

*Ready!

1-2-3!

*L-A-S-A-L-L-E

* La Salle , Rah!!!

Who's To Win This Game

Who's To Win This Game, Set! 1-2-3!

Who's To Win This Game? * Green!

Who's To Win This Game? *White!

Green! *Green!

White! *White!

Fight! *Fight!

*Green, White, Fight!

*Green, White, White, White!

*Go, Fight, Fight, Fight!

*Green, White, Go, Fight!

*Green, White, Fight!

*Green, White, White, White!

*Go, Fight, Fight, Fight!

*De La Salle! De La Salle!

*Fight, Team, Fight!

Zama Zipa Zam!

Zama Zipa Zam, Set! 1-2-3!

Zama Zipa Zam!

* Zama Zipa Zam!

Ready!

*Ready!

1-2-3

* Zama Zipa Zam! (1-2, 1-2-3, 1-2, 1-2-3)

*Fight!

(Repeat 3x)

Win, Team, Win!!

Rektikano

Rektikano, Set! 1-2-3

Rektikano!

*Rektikano!

Ready!

*Ready!1-2-3

Rektikano, Keene-keena (2x)

Rektikano, Rektikano,

Rektikano! Rah! (2x)

Seez-boom-bah! (2x)

Boom-rah-boom-rah

Boom-rah-boom-rah (2x)

Sis-boom-bah

Sis-boom-bah

La Salle , Rah!

Haydee Three Times

Haydee Three Times, Set! 1-2-3!

Haydee Three Times!

*Haydee Three TimesReady!

*Ready!1-2-3

*Haydee, Kaydee

Kala Wala Waydee

Kala Wala Wingo Dingo Daydee

Hush, Kush

Kala Wala Wush Wush

Kala Wala Wingo Dingo Dash

(Repeat 3x)

*1-2-3

*Animoooooooooo La Salle!

Boom-ma-kaya

Boom-ma-kaya, Set! 1-2-3!

Boom-ma-kaya!

*Boom-ma-kaya!Ready!

*Ready!

1-2-3

*Boom-ma-kaya! I-ma-ka-diwa (2x)

*Boom-ma-kaya, Imakadiwa! (3x)

*Fight, Team, Fight!

Strawberry Shortcake

Strawberry Shortcake, Set! 1-2-3

Strawberry Shortcake!

*Strawberry Shortcake!

Ready!

*Strawberry Shortcake!

1-2-3!

Strawberry Shortcake

Blueberry Pie

V-i-c-t-o-r-y

Victory, Victory

Is Our Cry

De La Salle, De La Salle

Heidi High

Derecho La Salle

1-2, 1-2, 3-4 )

1-2, 1-2, 3-4 )

1-2, 1-2, 3-4 )

1-2, 1-2, 3-4 )
D 1-2, 1-2, 3-4 )

L 1-2, 1-2, 3-4 )

S 1-2, 1-2, 3-4 )

U 1-2, 1-2, 3-4 )
D-L-S-U!DLSU, Derecho La Salle!!!

http://www.dlsu.edu.ph/athletics/cheers.asp

I bet you were trying to do or at least remember the actions to go with the cheers! hehehe!

A Stormy Weekend... Not!

My friends and I tried to spend our weekend "as usual" despite the storm which as of Saturday early morning has destroyed some 70,000 homes in Taiwan. Ergo, the rain was not as bad as the earlier part of the week.

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It was the week of the 2007 Moonrise Film Festival at the Robinson's Galeria Cinema. Rona's boyfriend was the editor in one of the docu-entries for the fest. It was a no-Oscars or FAMAS kinda thing though. I guess maybe because the theme was about the environment. It just feels awful to see lack of support from our people and the government likewise for activities with such cause.

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Finally I had the chance to see one of the most talked-about Pinoy movies of the year -- A Love Story. Generally the plot is nothing new but I think the writers did a good job on the screenplay. For those who've seen the movie can definitely relate, I bet! With quite a heavy heart Aya and I left the theater talking about how 'affected' we were. Hahaha! But seriously, I think nobody would want to be in either Joanna's or Carrine's place.

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We saw this nice little resto at the 2nd floor of Gale. Oooopppsss, I take it back! I meant cute! Yeah, for real! This cute restaurant called Chaikofi has this New York diner type of interior and lay-out. I think it's just about 100 sqm in size yet they were able to maximize the space even the edges that hold some "table-for-two" spots. Your usual pasta and chicken dishes were there -- the ones quick and easy to prepare. Their selection of green and black tea is definitely a must try! I had the Ripe Mango Green Tea and Aya had the Four Seasons Black Tea. Both were superb! We'd love to go back there. I learned that they have stores in Rob Place Manila, Mall of Asia and SM North.

http://www.chaikofi.com/

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It was about past midnight when I went for a night-out with a good friend of mine. We met a few interesting people through a new friend we met a couple of weeks ago. I only had 3 glasses of vodka tonic/seven since I thought I might end up being the driver again because of 'you-know-what' events and surprises. And guess what, I did another self-fulfilling prophecy yet again. I just decided to have a good meal at North Park together with Roly, Engel and George. We had a nice time talking about your usual stuff on love and relationship, while having this Chinese Food Feast! Went home a little past 5 in the AM.

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I felt so tired I fell asleep on the sofa with my jeans on! It felt silly that I got up after about 5 hours of sleep and not able to snooze again, darn! That Sunday became a TV day for me instead. I decided to just have lunch and told myself will get a good dinner later on. I fell asleep too early -- 6PM and woke up after 13 hours! Hahaha!

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Didn't get the chance to get back my car today since it's a non-working holiday for most people. Too bad I can't get it tomorrow since my plate is on color coding! I promise to really take good care of Oscar... :-)

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My Friendster horoscope for today reads:

Your best friend might be the most wonderful person on earth, but they aren't the person you should always be counting on in your life. They are there for moral support, but they can't fix everything that you think is broken right now. The stars say that you should spend time today building up your relationship with yourself -- because in the end, you always have to be able to rely on yourself. The great news is that self-nurturing is a very fun thing to do!

I say:

You should not always count on your best friend even if they always count on you. I mean after all, they counting on you clearly indicates some form of independence from your end. So what are the chances that you can't handle your own mess?
And yes, they can't fix everything that you think is broken... so much so if the brokenness is because of that person.

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'Pag minalas ka nga naman

'pag minalas ka nga naman
parang sunod-sunod 'di mo mapigilan
Linggong masakit ang ulo dahil puyat kagabi
pag gising ang maling akala'y may pagkaing nakahain

'di makalakwatsa kasi walang pera
'di rin makapag road trip, ang kotse nasa kasa
makapag-gym na lang nga, ay katamad mag biyahe
dvd marathon na sana pero pulpol rin pala

ilang hithit sa sigarilyo kahit hagupit ang init
tambak na labada wala ring magawa
bitbit ang bag na singbigat ng isang bata papunta sa mega
sa hapunang maalinsangan butas pa ang bulsa

late ng tatlong minuto, timesheet ngayo'y buhol-buhol
sa report na isa-submit, mas gusto ko pang magpunit
suporta mula sa 'taas', umasa pang pagbibigyan
larong sinimulan, bahagyang tagumpay natikman

pakisuyo ng kaibigan, hindi ko napagbigyan
libreng lunch buffet sa hotel... sayang
mahimbing na tulog pero pero limang oras lamang
suot pa'y pinagpawisan kaninang umaga

late na sa opisina at wala pang hapunan
kaliwa't kanang isyu sa inbox, kumusta naman
di man sinasadya, inosenteng nilalang ang napagbuntunan
kawawa naman maski walang kasalanan

magsalita o manahimik, tiyak may masasabi
ano pa nga ba, mga mensahe ako'y pinutakti
bumagyo pa kung kailan may naka-plano na
ayon argumento sa kausap, daig pa ang summer

uuwi ka na lang, mga nakasimangot at nakakunot
eto ako basang sisiw dahil sa malakas na ulan
goodluck naman, kapag nabinat pa
tambak na labada... tambak pa rin

'pag minalas ka nga naman
ano bang mayroon sa linggong ito
at ano pang mayroon sa araw na ito
malas....

ang nakakainis na malas. tsk tsk tsk.

I've got Series! What about you?

I've been hooked to quite a few tv series for quite sometime now. Aside from the fact that most of these tv shows have good reviews, I just get to watch them whenever convenient -- DVD copies you bet! I don't really care if I'm behind a few episodes from what are being showed on cable tv or in the US but as long as I am able to watch say a complete season, I'm good.


Not only do these shows have interesting plots and storylines, they have admirable characters that I'm sure everyone can relate to! Oh yes... you know that sigh or nod that you unconsciously do whenever a character says or does something that somehow "you"? That's what I'm talkin' about.




LOST: Dr. Jack Shepard

The character of Matthew Fox is fascinating yet peculiar. He has been the sort of 'leader' of the survivors of Oceanic flight 815 on the island. I guess because he's the doctor and on most part, injuries are just always there and a doc comes in very handy. Initially (or even on some parts) he didn't want to take the lead even on non-doctor concerns but I guess it just comes out naturally! I mean come on, people already have this high regard of him and they'd usually come to Jack and ask what does he think about this and that. He's got this charm that can simply get everyone's attention each time he says something -- and people listen mind you.


One other nice thing I like about Jack is his convictions. Once he says something that he'd do, he really does it no matter what. If it's time to give up or compromise though, he's not too egoistic. In the love department, I think it's a totally different story though! I think he's got too much pride on that at some point haha!


Dr. Shepard projects himself too well that it takes some time or quite an intrusive person to get to know the other side of him that has some issues. Overall he's a classic example of how one should manage perception.

CSI: Gil Grissom
One of William Petersen's dialogues that really caught my attention was when he said "because you don't see it, it doesn't mean it's not there." This man would always leave the viewers in deep deep thinking -- can be irritating but gets your neurons working which is I guess nice.


The teamwork among his subordinates is exemplary. He's got this indirect yet motivating, challenging and encouraging ways of empowering his peers. He doesn't just spoon-feed them with the what's and the how's of their work. Of course forensics experts have to be scientific and all but Grissom's logic (even on things outside the crime scene and lab) is just way beyond what is required of his job. I just love the guy!


HEROES: Nathan Petrelli

The Congressman from New York played by Adrian Pasdar. First off, I like his superpower -- he can fly! Yey! This gets me thinking really, this is the NOW-FUTURE Peter Pan haha! Believe it or not, up to now I still feel that I have this certain capability that I can somehow fly! Absurd or funny huh?! But yeah, I don't know but I guess this is just the child part of me that I can't simply let go.


This elder brother of Peter (Petrelli) is such a proud and secretive person but what I like about him is his genuine love for his younger brother. He'd do anything for Peter's sake.

Nathan knows what he wants and he does what ever it takes to get it. He can be too driven by his aspirations and priorities that at some point he has to sacrifice some things and even some people he loves. Oh well, some harsh part of reality that we have to accept I guess. There you go, the "no pain, no gain" theory.

Nip/Tuck: Sean McNamarra
One of Miami's top cosmetic surgeons -- along with his bestfriend and business partner Dr. Christian Troy. Dylan Walsh's character may seem to be too silent and reserved but wait until best bud Christian pokes him! Between the two of them, Sean is on the conventional side of things. He sticks to the protocols (of the business and life in general) as much as possible. He has been regarded as the better doctor but he doesn't make Christian feel that way. In fact his humility extends by always telling his best bud that he couldn't make it to the cosmetic surgery business without him.

I so love their partnership and friendship. When they argue, they really argue but it's just so nice to see how they make it up with each other. I just can't get the part when they found out that Sean's eldest son is actually his bestfriend's! Christian had a thing with Sean's wife. But guess what, at the end of the day, even when Sean and Julia got separated, it was Christian who stayed. This is really difficult and I'm saying this because got a similar thing that happened to me. I tried it but it just didn't work. Oh well..


Grey's Anatomy: Meredith Grey
I actually have quite a few favorites in the people of the Seattle Grace Hospital but this online diagnosis said that I'm a Meredith! The online diagnosis (http://abc.go.com/primetime/greysanatomy/quiz/greysdiagnosis/index) says:

"You don't always make the right choices, but you get points for trying, bouncing right back, and starting over. For being so "dark and twisty," you have a surprisingly sunny outlook on life. You're quick to jump into new relationships but just as quick to jump out. After the example your parents set, learning to trust someone else takes just about everything you've got."

I quite agree on most part except I guess about the relationships part which really comes as a scarcity to me. This is what I get for being too cautious, worried and careful. I don't want to put in my character analysis of Mer since there's gotta be a over a million of these already on the net since everybody knows her! I gotta say this though, I find wisdom in her narrations on each episode.

Blog Day (Interrupted)

I was looking forward to writing my new entry today but two of my good friends came over at nakipag chikahan while watching THE BUZZ!

Oh by the way, on last night's night-out with friends, i just realized my role after a series of Saturday gimmicks with them: I have to stay sober coz i end up driving for them! Good thing I usually don't bring my car on weekends when I'm with them. Oh well, as long as they are happy and enjoying, I'm cool with that. They have low threshold in alcohol tolerance that is...

KKK

(Kikoy Kit Ko)

This is one of the most private blog entries I have. Yes, you got the title right, Kikoy Kit. I’ll share with you what’s inside my precious kit that I bring everyday. Come on, take a look!



Kenneth Cole Reaction (for men) EDT
The first time I smelled this, I fell in love with the scent right away! Of course I’m exaggerating – I was torn between this one and Burberry Summer but I ended up getting Kenneth Cole. Oh by the way, I got a good deal with this too! It came with a 100-ml aftershave – cologne too. It smells sweet and “citrus-sy” which is the way I like my perfume!

I usually keep two types of scents with me. One stays at home and one I always bring around. For some reason I feel like there’s some sort of emptiness when I don’t have my perfume on. I have Guess (Man) as my second perfume. I’ve consumed about 2/3 of the 100-ml bottle already before I bought the Kenneth Cole.

My ever favorite is Clinique Happy for Men. They say that perfume has a way of blending with someone’s skin (or even sweat, seriously!) and I guess this is true. I’d usually spray like a dozen times (no kidding!) at the start of the day and by the time I put my clothes to the hamper, it still smells nice. I’ve had about close to a dozen bottles of Clinique already for the past seven years! Love it!

Bench Fix Styling Stick
Behold this hair wonder! Actually Bench has a promising set of hairstyle products especially for men. The hair clay is also a good one. The stick is just terrific! It gives the hair the wanted ‘hold’ that’s not too shiny. And guess what I like about this the most, say after washing it off on your hair with just water – ah, you can get that ‘out-of-bed’ stylish look after fan-dry.

Cream Silk Leave-On
If I simply want those frizzy hairs to tame down a bit, the leave-on will do the trick! And it smells good by the way.

Bath & Body Works® Body Cream (Pink Grapefruit)
A cousin of mine from New York sent this to my mom recently. I went ahead and tried it – ummm it smelled really nice. Target areas: elbows, knees and ankles! One time when I walked into our room I thought “hey, do we have an air freshener with that pink grapefruit scent?” -- Oooppsss, I figured, it was just my brother who tried it on. The smell totally occupied the entire room.

Pond’s Facial Wash / Kojic Soap
I have such an oily face so I really have to take time to freshen up and water would not just simply do it. I always need soap or facial wash. From my dermatologist, kojic soap usually gives that rosy cheeks effect. It can be quite stingy if you leave it on your face a little longer than the usual.

Pond’s Facial Toner
Twice a day or whenever washing the face with soap and water is impossible and I feel icky already – the toner saves the day. It cleans the face at the same time which is really what I’m after.

Olay Total Effects

Before I took my dermatologist’s prescription, Olay Total Effects already gave such nice reviews from friends after about 2 weeks of usage. It really lightens up the face, helps removes dark spots and those scary dark areas – eye bags! Oh by the way, Olay also has 15 SPF sunblock!

Sunblock
I’ve never been too particular about sunblock before but since it’s now prescribed then I don’t have any choice. But seriously, I only apply this Sunblock (chemical-free SPF 30) whenever I’m gonna be out in the sun in the morning or afternoon. Usually I’m home already before 10AM. In other words, this is just on a need-be basis.

St. Ives Eye and Face Stress Gel
Talk about daily stress! Literally, I think everybody needs something to cool us down. This gel has this soothing cool effect when applied to one’s face. Put the gel on the area below the eyes and the rest will follow. If applied to the entire face, I think this also serves as a moisturizer at the same time!

Colgate, Toothbrush & OraCare Mouthwash
It has been Colgate for me eversince – yeah since childhood! Yeah, yeah, I know, I also had a taste of that super mint strong toothpaste – MAXXAM! Aarrrggghhh! At home I prefer to use just the plain white Colgate. I carry the Colgate Fresh Confidence (green or blue) brand elsewhere. Having a toothpaste and toothbrush all the time is always a life-saver especially in last-minute sleep-overs. OraCare mouthwash adds on to that fresh breath feeling!

GreenCross Isopropyl Alcohol (with moisturizer)
Usually after smoking or before eating, it’s always nice to disinfect right?! And what better way to do it than with a brand that has moisturizer!

Deodorant
A must-have especially if there’s a gimmick or somewhere else to go to after gym. I switch brands each time I finish one.

Johnson’s Baby powder
If I feel like I’m gonna sweat a lot like a 10-year old, I’d shower myself (especially my back) with baby powder. Remember how our moms used to put towels on our backs whenever we play like horses? Hehehe.

Ascorbic Acid
One way to fight stress – take vitamins! Once a day is good enough for me.

Shampoo & Conditioner
Do you always like the shampoo and conditioner at your gym? Or maybe, at a friend’s house where you slept over at? It wouldn’t hurt if you carry a sachet or two.

Better than you. Better than me.

• career-driven (e.g. manager na at least)
• mas mataas sweldo
• mas magarang kotse
• mas nice na house
• college graduate (with honors and/or distinctions)
• student leader (or awardee)
• has socio-civic involvement
• loves the art
• appreciates movies, plays, musicals
• enjoys a good read
• writes well
• can carry a tune (plus points if can sing very nicely as in with soul)
• well-travelled
• street-smart
• enjoys knowing and discovering trivial stuff
• can bring out a good laugh
• can blend in with friends
• excellent cook
• high EQ
• decisive
• quick thinker
• plans ahead
• loves kids (can tame kids)
• can argue with me
• can make me raise the white flag
• can stand by me
• can work with me
• can fight with me
• can fight for me...

... this is why I'm now affraid

... this is why I'm now hesitant

At least I can breathe now...

going...

going...

going...

and hopefully gone...


FOREVER...


with much gratitude,
jeff

... the way we used to be

Going down memory lane has always been enjoyable and meaningful to me. It gives some mixed emotions and realizations among other things even if some of those moments just repeatedly go over my head. Hell yeah, it's sort of a "cant-snap-out-of-it" nostalgia of roller coaster feelings. Sometimes I find myself going through some boxes of old pictures, or browsing my phone's picture gallery (and inbox, drafts, outbox mind you), or having a 'weird' grin when something or someone similar from the past in on the tube, or reading greeting cards, or cleaning and the attempt to dispose old junk, or simply having a solemn period alone... just moping.

I'm always fascinated whenever an image or a memory flashes through my head and suddenly, most often than not, you somehow get to that same old feeling that you had when that moment happened as if you are experiencing the whole thing over again -- except of course you're not. and yeah, I'm not talking about deja vu.

A thought just came to me... Can you really miss situations that are most likely going to happen again? People that you are already with or for sure spend some quality time with? But what moved me to write all these is what i think it is... I truly miss those situations that are most likely not going to happen again. I miss those people who i valueD so dearly yet have become too distant with. Too distant for me to think that I am never going to connect to them the way I used to. And I say these points as I make them more concrete.

• I miss not going home after work right away because we'll have breakfast at LKG or go to the mall or just hang out somewhere.
• I miss sleeping over with everyone there saying we're not staying up late because we all have to get up early... yet ending up staying late anyway because of endless chat or heart-to-heart sessions.
• I miss hearing someone asking someone else buy some ice from the nearby store.
• I miss eating pancit canton together in the green (and white) plastic plates we bought (not to mention we used to eat on the floor).
• I miss not missing tv because the it was busted and we simply enjoyed the mp3's from the pc.
• I miss the "kwek-kwek" and squid balls day every Saturday mornings.
• I miss having at least one in the group drunk each time we go to Kroc.
• I miss at least 15 people trying to get hold of 4 microphones just to sing.
• I miss the 'press cons' and meetings that used to get everyone updated.
• I miss burning our lungs out at Starbucks G4 after a good movie.
• I miss complaining why all soaps in the bathroom are either colored orange or pink (i.e. those skin whitening or whatever bars!)
• I miss going to work together.
• I miss taking breaks and lunches together.
• I miss everybody knowing every important thing someone has to share.
• I miss going to Divisoria haggling for whatever items.
• I miss the simple lives we used to live then.
• I miss the the fact that some complications we had were not mostly because of our own tangled together.
• I miss us.
• I miss the way we used to be.

I really do...

I feel sorry to even think that these can never happen again... I guess I don't want to push my luck and take chances. So much has been said and done. I guess I'd keep everything in the treasure box.

SLUM BOOK (hehehe)

1) Starting time: 3:25 PM (EST), June 29, 2007

2) Your Name: Jeffrey Umali Inandan

3) What are your nicknames: Jeff, Jeffie, Dieph

4) School: De La Salle – Lipa; De La Salle University - Manila

5) E-mail: jeff_inandan2000@yahoo.com

6) Eyes: black

7) Hair: black but I love to change hair color every once in a while

8) Pets: Hate ‘em!

9) Siblings: 2, they are twins!

~~**HAVE YOU EVER**~

10) Been so drunk you blacked out: drunk but didn’t black out though. That’s way too much!

11) Taken any illegal substances: Nope. Seriously!

12) Gone out in public in your pajamas: Yeah! To move my car, to buy something at the nearest store.

13) Missed school b/c it was raining: Yes but not during college days unless classes were suspended.

14) Set any body part on fire for amusement: Hell no!

15) Ever kept a secret from someone: Not just from someone, from a lot of people. Everybody does this, come on!

16) Who knows your deepest secrets: My closest friends.

17) Wanted to hook up with a friend: Yeah. Never worked.

18) Cried during a movie: Yup. But I get teary-eyed most of the time in MMK!

19) Had a crush on a teacher: Nope.

20) Ever thought an animated character was hot: Nah.

21) Ever at anytime owned New Kids on the Block stuff: No.

22) Planned your week based on the TV Guide: Funny… but yeah!

23) Prank called someone: yeah! Those who prank called me! Hahaha!

~~**FAVORITES**~~

25) Shampoo: Pantene, Rejoice, Lux, Sunsilk (I change brands each time a bottle gets emptied then revert back to the other brands)

26) Soap: Safeguard (Green or Orange); Dove; Ivory (Green)

27) Color: Green!

28) Day/Night: Night

29) Summer/Winter: Summer! Love the beach. And oh well, there’s no winter here in the Philippines. Though I love Europe’s winter! J

30) Online smile: Oh ayan! :-)

31) Lace or satin: For what? Parang alam ko na.. hehehe

32) Cartoons/Anime: The Little Rascals!!! Problem Child

33) Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend: As of this writing, no.

34) Like anyone: Oh geezzz!!! Super duper like!!! T.G. and A.R.

35) Who have you known the longest of your friends: Lester, Aya, etc (13 years); Rona, Marl etc (11 years)

36) Who is the shyest: None! hahaha

37) Who do you go to for advice: Lester, Aya, Marl, Rona, JM, Van, Jai, Keiko, Gracie

38) Who do you get the most surveys from: Aya, Marl, Rona, Rhods, Ad

39) Who do you cry with: Aya, Marl, Rona, Jai, Keiko, Gracie, and the rest of Chefars

~~**IN THE LAST 2 WEEKS HAVE YOU**~~

40) Cried: almost.

41) Cut your hair: Uh huh! Just did yesterday!

42) Exercised: Yeah! I go to the gym three times a week.

43) Worn a skirt: nope. Duh!

44) Been mean: Ay nako! Ay nako! Ummm… I hope not but yeah.. I think I was mean to some few friends.

45) Been sarcastic: Almost always the past 2 weeks! Ha!

46) Met someone new: Oh yeah! Exciting actually.

47) Talked to someone you have a crush on: nah. But a friend of mine is arranging for that big day! For the second one, yeah. Just did... finally!

48) Missed someone: Always. But I’m trying not to miss them… Bad.

49) Hugged someone: Yah! A lot actually! Some friends who greeted me during my birthday

50) Fought with your parents: Nope. It’s been a while. Kinda got tired of that. I’ve grown up!

51) Wished upon a star: Yes! Cute.

52) Laughed until you cried: No.

53) Played Truth or Dare: Nah. Don’t want the mess after the game… if you know what I mean.

54) Watched a sunrise/sunset: Beautiful.

55) Went to the beach at night: nope. Last month yes I did.

56) Spent quality time alone: yah sure. Got “me time” every week or so.

57) Read a book for fun: not recently.

58) Ate a great meal: Always!

59) Are you lonely: next question please.

60) Are you happy: in most aspects of my life yes!

61) Are you talking to someone online: intermittent – yeah!

~~**DO YOU BELIEVE IN~~**

62) God/Devil: yah..

64) The Closet Monster: Nah.

65) The Big Bang Theory: Yah.

66) Heaven/Underworld: Uh huh! Especially when I’m in an airplane or on a ship/boat.

67) Superstitions: Yah.

68) What's a name you'd rather be called: Tristan. Kevin.

69) Who named you: My mom I think.

70) Backstreet Boys or NSync: N’Sync! I love “This I promise you”

71) When was the last time you showered: before coming to work

72) What color pants do you have on right now: jeans, duh!

73) What song are you listening to right now: none but the last I played while I was on the shower was “Heart of mine”

74) What was the last thing you said: “Okay, bye!” -- from a short meeting with the team

75) What is right next to you: A display cabinet full of Price Pfister faucets!

76) What is your computer desk made of: Wood with the partitions and all.

77) What is your phone number (optional): check my email signature.

78) What was the last thing you ate: Rice and Adobo (a few hours ago)

79) Where do you want to go on your honeymoon: Venice. Paris.

80) Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with: Whoever is God’s gift for me.

81) How many buddies do you have on your PM list: a whole lot as in 250++ but only 150 or so online right now.

82) How's the weather right now: just about right. Rained earlier.

83) Have you ever smoked pot: yeah. Never liked it. Never tried it again.

84) What did you do last night: went to work.

85) What is the best thing you find about the opposite sex: They can be very loyal and lovable.

86) How are you today: Sleepy. Only got 5 hours of sleep. L

87) How do you eat an Oreo: I don’t eat Oreo! Wanna know why? Because everybody loves it!

88) Who makes you happy: Of course the usual… and now got something new… the thought of T.G. gawd!

89) Fav cds: Hed Kandi

90) Fav dream: Can’t remember my dreams lately.

91) Have you ever won any special awards: yah. Just check ‘em out at my house. Got quite a few of them :-)

92) What do you want to be when you grow up: I’m already a grown up! I guess when I was a kid, I wanted to be a newscaster! hehehe

93) End time: 4:54 PM (EST)

You taught me...

• You taught me to enjoy even the little things around me.
• You taught me that spontaneity is as good as being well-planned.
• You taught me how to trust easily.
• You taught me to think profoundly.
• You taught me to open up myself.
• You taught me to realize things that define friendship, love and being in love.
• You taught me to become selflessly in love.
• You taught me to become stupid in love.
• You taught me to miss you.
• You taught me to want you.
• You taught me to love you.
• You taught me the meaning of love's pain.
• You taught me to understand beyond imagination.
• You taught me to sacrifice endlessly.
• You taught me to forcefully hate you.
• You taught me how to love you still even stronger.

... but you never taught me how to get over you... you never taught me how to forget you... you never taught me how to 'unlove' you...

... so please let me do this my way... the best way I know how...

Twenty Seven

Sa tinagal-tagal ko nang hindi nagsusulat dito sa blog, parang di na ata ako marunong! hahaha! At sa dami nang nangyari saken the past year, dami ko rin gustong isulat pero nakakatamad... hahaha... Pero sige i'll try na nga lang...

• One year na rin akong walang lovelife. I couldn't say naman that i didn't have the chance (ulet) pero hindi lang talaga sapul. Para ngang I'm most likely to believe na lapitin ata ako ng mga komplikadong relationships at mga tao. Parang ang malas talaga... I really don't know what to feel everytime my good friends tell me na I didn't deserve those (i considered) special people in the past. Kesyo sa actual relationship daw eh sobrang martyr ako... which is well, most of the time true. I guess it's part of my personality. I may come too tough and strong to others and at first glance/encounter pero once you get to know me, ayun na! Pati sa lovelife ganun din... sobrang daling magpatawad.
• Ayokong magsalita nang tapos pero siguro hangga't maari ayoko na ng office romance. Juice ko po! Sangkatutak na ang mga intriga, hirap pa i-maintain! Gusto ko lang na parang equal footing lang kami pag getting to know each other part kasi minsan talaga naiisip ko (and like what my other friends tell me) na parang because of what i have come to establish sa career ko (modesty aside) at sa reputation ko kaya parang "to be conquered" ang approach... sad noh? :(
• 3 is indeed a crowd. Minsan sinubukan kong maging "unconventional" when it comes to patching things up in my failed relationship. After losing my ex then later finding out na sila na ng bestfriend ko, ay good luck naman di ba?! Of course i went through the anger stage and all... it came to a point naman din na the three of us were really doing well... in fact people around us were surprised how i was able to manage that... not for too long though... daming issues and and hirap talaga especially on my part. The 3 of us just didnt work...
• I wanted to let go but u wouldn't... I figured out that you actually did this already when the unexpected and unimaginable happened to us... I feared that I would still continue to love you even if you're inlove with someone else or worse done and over with it. I tried finding new love but somehow there was you again... sneaked up from behind... Why do i feel that you just want yourself to be happy? Why do i feel that you just want me stuck with these feelings for you? Why do i feel that you just want to experience and explore everything and wait for you until you become ready? Why do i feel that you dont want me to move on? One thing is for sure I know: I become more okay when we are not together...
• Kaya ngayong TWENTY SEVEN na ako siguro mas magiging maingat na ako sa mga decisions ko in life... more mature... but at the same time i'd try to have more fun as much as possible... :)

YES... It's over but not quite

It was the eve of our 3rd month when I pulled the plug.

It was during my birthday week (the week after our supposedly 3rd month) when I finally came to my senses that I could not go on this way. I'd like everything to be back to where we were before.

I need not write the details here but one thing is for sure -- no matter how hard I try, no matter how much thinking and planning I make, it still boils down to one fact -- I still love TLC. I don't know how or until when, I'm holding on to whatever I have and whatever I can give.

To you:
Cliche as it may sound, if time and space is what you need, sure you now have them. I just hope you realize how much I love you so. It hurts so bad... but what else can I do?

Just let me love you the way I know how... nothing more... nothing less...

Even if… Because…

Even if you play dumb…
Even if you are vain…
Even if you are stubborn…
Even if it irritates me sometimes to make you brush your teeth…
Even if it drives me nuts to make you cut your nails…
Even if you don’t read books…
Even if you don’t understand motion pictures…
Even if you are talkative…
Even if you behave like a child most of the times…

Because you are witty more than you’ll ever know…
Because I’m learning a lot of things from you as well…
Because I simply love the way you look…
Because you like to be taken care of…
Because I like to take care of you…
Because you are not ashamed of what you do not know…
Because you know how to learn new things…
Because you like pictures and drawings, no dialogues…
Because you want to be heard…
Because I like to hear your thoughts…
Because you bring joy and laughter…

Even if it might sound Greek to you… I’m saying all these
Because these are just some of the thousand reasons why I love you…

I used to think...

01 May 2006

Lately I’ve been learning to unlearn some things for various reasons. I guess I'm already at the mature stage where I wouldn’t think that I’ll be at the losing end. For the longest time, I think I’ve operated in a WIIFM scheme especially on big things that I’ve to put so much time and effort on. Yeah, yeah… call me selfish or childish but that’s how I am.

Guess what, I’m trying to do a recall of the things (so far) that I’ve started to unlearn – in other words, have adjusted to, sacrificed, compromised, gave up. Oh yes, even I couldn’t believe it myself. For the right reasons… for the right person…

I used to think that in relationships, both parties would have to invest equal time with each other (or at least have the equal effort of trying to).

I used to think that you have to know all the things that both of you are doing for each other.

I used to think that you can’t say NO to the one you love.

I used to think that lovers will find it really difficult to be friends too.

I used to think that a self-centered person can be selfless for the one he loves.

I used to think that I cannot fight for the one I love.

I used to think that my dreams and aspirations will be absolute as I reach them – no negotiations applicable.

I used to think for “me, myself and I”, now there’s also “us and we”.

I used to think that I’ll never fall in love again…

TEN Things I hate about you ... (with rebuttals)

TEN things I hate about you…
TEN things I hate about you… " the resbak"

1) You don’t eat your breakfast but you always remind me to have mine
1a) You always remind me to eat my breakfast just to let me think that i must tell you to eat yours too!

2) You can’t cut your nails on your own without being forced to do so
2a) You do cut my nails but I end up doing it myself.

3) Most of the time your approach to anything and everything is like a laughing matter
3a Most of the time you are very serious and you dont have any past time just to make you happy. thats why im trying my best to make you feel better.

4) You make me “pikon” first before you show up and tell me it’s a surprise
4a) You are always pikon even if you already knew that it was a surprise just to prolong the climax of what you’re feeling at that moment.

5) You just keep my “notes” and never write back
5a) You always give me notes and letters even if you know that i hate to read. but im taking some time and consideration by reading those msgs that you give me.

6) You take a ride home with me and then ask the driver to drop you off elsewhere – and you’d just say “bye” and leave me with a goofy smile
6a) You take me for a ride and simply convince me not to leave you and secretly tell the driver that he must not stop whenever, wherever.

7) You mimic me with what I’m supposed to tell you. In fact I think you’ve come to memorize my usual lines on you
7a) You are always reiterating all the things that you've been saying that’s why I’ve memorized all those lines.

8) You don’t tell me what’s going on your head most of the time
8a) You dont know how to figure out whats going on in my mind and then you'll end up being pissed and pikon.

9) You don’t know how to say “NO” to other people (oh yes, including your friends)
9a) You dont know how to understand me -- why and what are the reasons why i say YES to them -- in fact i know that, that must be a NO NO.

10) You simply know how to make me not mind everything I just said by letting me know and making me feel how much you love me
10a) You simply dont know how to mind something thats why this secret is now the no1 talk in this community and you are very conceited because you know that i love you so.

Hmmm… what the heck, I guess I wouldn’t love you as much as I do if you don’t have the ten things I hate about you…
Hmmm... what the heck, I guess I wouldnt love you as much as I do if you dont have the ten things I hate about you too...

TEN things I hate about you...

TEN things I hate about you…

1) You don’t eat your breakfast but you always remind me to have mine
2) You can’t cut your nails on your own without being forced to do so
3) Most of the time your approach to anything and everything is like a laughing matter
4) You make me “pikon” first before you show up and tell me it’s a surprise
5) You just keep my “notes” and never write back
6) You take a ride home with me and then ask the driver to drop you off elsewhere – and you’d just say “bye” and leave me with a goofy smile
7) You mimic me with what I’m supposed to tell you. In fact I think you’ve come to memorize my usual lines on you
8) You don’t tell me what’s going on your head most of the time
9) You don’t know how to say “NO” to other people (oh yes, including your friends)
10) You simply know how to make me not mind everything I just said by letting me know and making me feel how much you love me

Hmmm… what the heck, I guess I wouldn’t love you as much as I do if you don’t have the ten things I hate about you…

I believe that angels brought me here

I Believe
by Fantasia Barrino

Have you ever reached a rainbow's end?
And Did you find your pot of gold?
Ever catch a shooting star?
Tell me how high did you soar?
Ever felt like you were dreaming,
Just to find that you're awake?
And the magic that surronds you,
Can lift you up, and guide you on your way.

I can see it in the stars across the sky.
Dreamt a hundred thousand dreams before
Now I finally realize.
You see I've waited all my life for this moment to arrive,
And finally,
I believe

When you look out in the distance
You see it never was that far
ohh no Heaven knows your existance
and wants you to be everything you are
ooh theres a time for every soul to fly
its in the eyes of every child
its the hope the love to save the world and ohhh we should never let it go

chorus

(Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah)
I believe in the impossible,
If I reach deep within my heart (Yeah)
Overcome many obstacles,
Won't let this dream just fall apart
You see I strive to be the very best,
Shine my light for all to see
Cause anything is possible,
When you believe ( I Can see it in the stars across the sky)
Yeah, yeah (Dreamt a hundred thousand dreams before)
Now I finally realize
You see I've waited all my life for this moment to arrive
And finally
I believe
ohhhhhhh yeah
I believe
Oooooh Yeah Yeah
(Love keeps lifting me higher)
I believe in love
(Love keeps lifting me higher)
higher higher higher higher

(Love keeps lifting me higher)
yeah-hea yeah-hea hea hea hea yeah
(Love keeps lifting me higher)
Love keeps lifting, love keeps lifting me higher
(Love keeps lifting me higher)
You oughtta try it for yourself
lifting me higher yeah yeah
(love keeps liftin me higher)
i believe i believe in love
(love keeps lifting me higher)
love yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
(love keeps lifting me higher)

higher higher higher higher higher
(love keeps liftin me higher)
love keeps liftin love keeps lifting me higher


Angels Brought Me Here
by Guy Sebastian

It’s been a long and winding journey,
But I’m finally here tonight picking up the pieces and walking back into the light
Into the sunset of your glory where my heart and future lies
There’s nothing like that feeling when I look into your eyes

My dreams came true when I found you; I found you, my miracle

If you could see what I see
That you’re the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel the tenderness i feel
You would know it would be clear, that angels brought me here

standing here before you
Feels like I’ve been born again
Every breath is your LOVE
Every heartbeat speaks your name

My dreams came true right here in front of you my miracle

If you could see what I see
You’re the answer to my prayer
And if you could feel the tenderness i feel
You would know it would be clear, that angels brought me here

brought me here, to be with you
Ill be forever grateful, oohh forever thankful

My dreams came true when I found you my miracle

If you could see what I see
You’re the answer to my prayers, oh...
And if u could feel the tenderness i feel
You would know it would be clear that angels brought me here

You know i love you baby
And if you could feel the tenderness i feel
You would know it would be clear, that angels brought me here